You Make Me Feel Like I'm Living A Teenage Dream

I am speechless; my emotions are so overwhelming right now and I hope that they never come down.  I had one of the best days of my life today all because of you and I love you for it.  I am just so AHHHHHH!  HAPPPY!  I did not think I would be saying that today since things really have not been going too well lately.  My love for you has grown today; I can look you in the eyes and say that.  I am so in love with you that I don't know what to do with myself.  Every touch, every look, every movement makes me fall in love with you even more.  You make me feel so safe, so secure.  When you hold me I feel as if though nothing can every tear us apart.  I love you so much that it is currently making me cry.  Please God, let today have been a sign, a sign of assurance that we will be together in the very near future.  I have not felt this happy in a while.  I can thank him for each and every tear of absolute, honest elation that I am currently drowning in.  I have never loved someone as much as I love him <3

November 28, 2010 <3 You will never be forgotten, ever.

Why do I even bother

What is going on with my life; things seem to have derailed totally.  Happiness and I seem to be at odds; eternal foes.  I don't really ask for much, just love and happiness.  Why can't either one seem to find me?  Am I doing something wrong?  What is it?  I am a kind enough person, so why am I being re- paid like this?  I am miserable; the utter definition of miserable.  I have never felt so lost and confused in my entire life; what is going on?  I need help; I need a miracle.  Please God, let me find this miracle. 

Oh my lanta, Mr. Darcyyyyy

"You have bewitched me body and soul and I love..I love... I love you."

This quote is my life

Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen closely.

Life is... shit.

I just love how nothing can ever seem to go right in my life.  Like, really, REALLY?!  My entire future is in jeprody because of a math test, my friends are egotistical assholes who don't seem to give a fuck, I have been in love with the same person for over a year and he doesn't care, my family seems to be miserable.  Why is happiness so hard to achieve?  Like honestly... I view myself as a good, wholesome person.  I am kind to pratically everyone at school and I get nothing in return.  The one thing I have asked , prayed for is love.  Do I get it?  No.  I am hung up on the same guy and for some odd reason cannot let go.  I am out of reasons why.  I think miserable is just the way my life is programmed to be.